Trying to catch up

High School volleyball ended with a disappointing loss in the first round of the state play-offs. Middle school try-outs have ended. We had 60+ girls come out and now have a team of 14. I just love making cuts. Patrick and I butted heads over a discipline issue on our team during the school day on Friday, but managed to pull it together for volleyball cuts that afternoon. We have one week to practice before some county scrimmage where all the teams in the county play against each other. Then we have our first match at Kings Mountain! Welcome back to KMMS!

I really do have wonderful teammates at school that I'm learning to appreciate more and more. The last three Fridays we've spent over an hour talking about everything and nothing after school (or after volleyball this week). My one complaint is that they are very indecisive - especially since Heather moved to her new position. If you know me at all, then you know that I'm becoming the decisive one of the team. It's weird to make the decisions though because I'm the "new" kid with the least amount of experience. They support me in my decisiveness. I think I'm pretty fair at weighing every one's opinions and making a decision that best fits everyone. The kids have simply been pushing the limit with the interim substitute and we're having to take on "bad guy" roles to cover for her. Some of them are learning and others probably won't learn no matter how hard we try.

One final thought that I am struggling with today. I am amazed at how busy I can be but also how lonely I feel. I'm still searching for the friends around me (in Hickory) to talk to and do things with that won't interfere with their family's life. Most of them include me in their plans and outings when I'm right there in front of them, but out of sight, out of mind usually applies. Hickory can be pretty lonesome, but I don't know where else I could go. My prayer of the morning was "Lord, I believe that you know what's best for me. But Lord help my unbelief."