Amateur

"The word amateur has been redefined over the years and has lost the luster of its original meaning. The English word comes from the Latin word, amore, which means 'to love.' An amateur is someone who does something simply for the love of it."

This paragraph jumped out at me today. I am currently struggling with some news that I received last night. This news that I cannot divulge just yet is going to require more responsibility of me that I was not expecting. I am fighting through the emotional responses currently. I waver between sadness and anger. The psychologist in me says that's the normal grieving process. During my fits of anger, I have reached the wanting to quit point. There is part of me that wants to say "Screw it all!" That's where this particular article got me this evening. What is being asked of me is something that I love to do. I won't be paid to do this. I'll have to sacrifice more of my time for this. Some unfortunate changes are happening to put this responsibility on my shoulders. I need to be willing to take on this responsibility because I love doing and I love these people. This probably makes no sense to anyone but me. I like this definition of amateur and wanted to share it.

I've been working hard at Majesty Motors. This week I'm taking pictures of the inventory and working with Joe to get it all onto the website. I have people interactions in spurts, usually around meals this week. This is my last full week of vacation. Volleyball starts next week. Teacher workdays start the week after that. School starts the next week. August is pretty full already.

I'm attempting to do some heavy duty counseling cramming. I'd like to finish this one course before next week. Then I'd like to get a good jump on one of the other courses before school starts. It's going to take some discipline, but I can do it! God is starting to form my vision of where I'm heading with these counseling courses. The details are foggy at best, but I'm still searching Him out on these. I have a big dream that only God could fulfill the details, but that might be where I'm heading. Just let me know and I'll share it with you...